Musings - JL

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Guy is pissed at me. I don't like it when he's angry with me, it's the first time he's ever been angry with me. It hurts.

I know I could avoid it too, I could not accept his calls, I could pretend he never existed to me and things would be alright again. But George did exist, and he still does, and i'm lacking that little something that would make me want to rid him from my life. He's still charming. He's still there when I need him, if i need him. It's comforting. It's nice that we're beginning to form that again, after all this time.

I admit last time wasn't great, and the way it all ended was pretty shit. But there was a lot of good with him and Guy just can't see that.

He can't see it because he wasn't there.

It's really starting to annoy me that he goes on about George the way he does; he makes it so uncomfortable for me. Not so much in what he says, but through his body language. I can understand it, but that doesn't mean I condone it. George was awful to Guy, he deserves a little bit of hostility, but Guy truly hates him, I can tell, and I don't know what to do.

George was there first. But I love Guy. Sometimes I think I still love George too.

I don't think the two can coexist beside each other. It's really getting me down.

I just wish they'd both get along.

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[linden-jay.livejournal.com]

[Jay] *sob* *twisty chest*

[!Guy] *peeks over shoulder* Ooh- Jude left a journal post, can I read it? *climbs into lap*

[Jay] *switches off monitor quickly* No sweetie- you can't... um... this one's private, babes- you can't see it- okay?

[!Guy] *furrows brow up all confused and sexy like- Jay shakes head- focus damnit! like* But... I'm just the muse- I get to see the private stuff- it can't be that bad!

[Jay] *ponders what his reaction will be if any of the Guy's find out that Jude is a) hurt that Guy is pissed at him, b) that Jude still has whateverthefuckitis for George, c) that Jude is upset because Guy won't stop slamming George, d) that Jude just said for the first time that wasn't at the end of an email or note that he loves Guy....* Yeah, I'm sorry pumpkin- not this time. Why don't you go lust over some nice pictures of Eric- there's a good boy! *hands over pictures*

[!Guy] *sulks for a moment, grabs pictures and darts away*

[Jay] *calls over shoulder* Don't let Harry find those- I'm giving him enough trouble right now without you starting something!

[!Guy] *calls back something non-commital*

[Jay] *turns monitor back on...* Oh hell *sobs again.*

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[darknightjess.livejournal.com]

*resists urge to hand Guy a length of rope and instructions on how to restrain Jude til this idea fades*

ICK on george!!

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[angie-palace.livejournal.com]

Great stuff, seriously. I mean, I'm another one who'd just as soon George took a long walk off a short pier, but I can really feel the conflict within Jude. He remembers the good times and it makes sense that that would be seductive, if it looks like George has learned his lesson and that there's a chance he and Jude can take their relationship back to when it was good. I don't believe it for a moment, mind you, 'cause George is a selfish, manipulative shit, but I can understand why Jude believes, or at least hopes.

Very nice.

Angie