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Musings - JL
Jan. 25th, 2005 01:42 am![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
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Guy is pissed at me. I don't like it when he's angry with me, it's the first time he's ever been angry with me. It hurts.
I know I could avoid it too, I could not accept his calls, I could pretend he never existed to me and things would be alright again. But George did exist, and he still does, and i'm lacking that little something that would make me want to rid him from my life. He's still charming. He's still there when I need him, if i need him. It's comforting. It's nice that we're beginning to form that again, after all this time.
I admit last time wasn't great, and the way it all ended was pretty shit. But there was a lot of good with him and Guy just can't see that.
He can't see it because he wasn't there.
It's really starting to annoy me that he goes on about George the way he does; he makes it so uncomfortable for me. Not so much in what he says, but through his body language. I can understand it, but that doesn't mean I condone it. George was awful to Guy, he deserves a little bit of hostility, but Guy truly hates him, I can tell, and I don't know what to do.
George was there first. But I love Guy. Sometimes I think I still love George too.
I don't think the two can coexist beside each other. It's really getting me down.
I just wish they'd both get along.
Guy is pissed at me. I don't like it when he's angry with me, it's the first time he's ever been angry with me. It hurts.
I know I could avoid it too, I could not accept his calls, I could pretend he never existed to me and things would be alright again. But George did exist, and he still does, and i'm lacking that little something that would make me want to rid him from my life. He's still charming. He's still there when I need him, if i need him. It's comforting. It's nice that we're beginning to form that again, after all this time.
I admit last time wasn't great, and the way it all ended was pretty shit. But there was a lot of good with him and Guy just can't see that.
He can't see it because he wasn't there.
It's really starting to annoy me that he goes on about George the way he does; he makes it so uncomfortable for me. Not so much in what he says, but through his body language. I can understand it, but that doesn't mean I condone it. George was awful to Guy, he deserves a little bit of hostility, but Guy truly hates him, I can tell, and I don't know what to do.
George was there first. But I love Guy. Sometimes I think I still love George too.
I don't think the two can coexist beside each other. It's really getting me down.
I just wish they'd both get along.
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